One of my rituals for each new year is to choose a word to influence me for the year. My word for 2011 is EXPERIMENT. To support my EXPERIMENTAL focus, I commit to post the results of a new experiment each Sunday of this year.
I was chatting with a friend. She mentioned she’d just had a tooth pulled. Then I needed to share that I’d recently had THREE teeth pulled. She said, ” Ouch, you trumped me by two.”
It hit me. I didn’t MEAN to trump her. Just when I THOUGHT I was telling a story that related to hers, I realized I was actually telling one to steal from hers. Something in me needed to ‘best’ her. I hate I did that.
I’m not still beating up myself over it. I am acutely aware of it though. So for this past week I’ve done my best not to fall into the same trap. I’ve even made up a name for the trap . I call it the “let me show you my scar” syndrome.
I have to admit, it hasn’t been easy. I’ve been more than a little amazed and humbled by how often I had to stop myself from telling a ‘better’ story. At least I had the courage to admit it – once.
Years ago I heard Fr Richard Rohr say that he used this filter when speaking:
- is it true?
- is it loving?
- and is it necessary?
Wish I could promise I’ll keep up this experiment. I can promise I’ll be more mindful of IF and WHEN my showing off my scars makes it through those filters Richard mentioned.
What kind of chord/if any does this experiment strike with you?